Depression is something hard to come out of, all you want to do is sit or lay around all day. What was fun for you before isn't fun now and seems impossible to do even if you want to do it.
Ok so over the last couple weeks a lot has been going on in my life. For me it has taken such a toll on me that I have been literally wanting to do things like work on myself but have been having trouble getting myself to, even thinking of something to write on here was hard to do and still is right now as I write this. I have been trying to do one thing a day even if it was just meditation or reading. A couple of the days I even made a couple videos which seemed almost impossible for me to do but I knew I could do it even if the videos weren't good.
I even have been having a hard time getting into the gym, which I LOVE until yesterday. When I went I actually felt good. Over the last 2 weeks I have had periods of feeling good. I got to spend time with my family for Christmas, and parents for new years which helped take my mind off things for a while because I was able to have family around me to comfort me. But I noticed that even after Christmas was over I was still feeling down and depressed, and had a hard time doing anything more until reading or mediation.
Today turned out different. I woke up and went through my eBay store and made sure all my products were up to date, did meditation, and now am writing this after work, and I still have hours ahead of me to even read and if I am able to do even more stretching or yoga to improve my body today! In a way I feel like going to the gym yesterday was what helped me today to not be as down and depressed and to be able to get shit done. Literally to get myself to go to the gym I had to spend some money and buy a product to motivate me even more to go to the gym. It was a Christmas present to myself but I knew it would be good to try and would get me to at least go to the gym, which was my stepping stone!
Closing thoughts.
If you are depressed find out what your stepping stone is going to be. I have been depressed for a couple weeks and it made my life feel like shit, but now that I am breaking out of it it feels amazing! If you have been depressed for quite some time I can't imagine how hard it would be to come out of it, but what I learned is to do something that will force you to increase confidence and do something you love at the same time as a stepping stone. If I wouldn't have bought the program I know I would keep procrastinating and wouldn't even be writing this blog post right now. You don't even have to spend money like I did but if you do and have the money it is worth it because if you invest your money into something you are more likely to do it.
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